Hospital Haters

I am a big time hospital hater....you wanna know why??? There are two reasons:

One-because I had to deal with hospitals most my life
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Two-because my mom is now stuck there because nobody knows what they hell they're doing anymore!!


Ugh. Seriously! I am gonna dis on Mesa View for a minute because....honestly....why be a hospital if you cant fix people??? Seriously!! They had to move my mom from there to the hospital up here in St. George because supposedly they didnt have the equipment to do what she needed to have done. How pathetic is that?!?! Omg!


So anyways....I seriously wish I could be in my mom's place right now. The poor woman has been through hell and back this past week and a half. I feel so bad for her. I wish I could just snap my fingers and it would all go away in an instant....but we all know thats not how life works...


I'm just hoping they find the problem soon and FIX IT!! Because if they have to move her to another hospital...AGAIN! I'm gonna scream. She doesn't deserve to be put through all this. I HATE seeing my mom like this....breaks my heart. Which is why I just wish I could take her place. Even though I'm pretty sure that once I was in her shoes...I'd want out but still... You know what I mean. Haha.



Point is......I HATE HOSPITALS!!!


-The End-

I Believe In Miracles

Most of you probably don't know that a few months ago my step-mom was diagnosed with a type of cancer that is very rare and very strong. The doctor pretty much told her that she didn't have long to live. Boy did that hit home very hard!! I don't think I've ever cried so hard and so much in my life. I mean my step-mom is like my mom. She's been a part of my life since I was like seven years old. So I definitely consider her a mom.



After finding out she had cancer.....she pretty much started on a vegetarian diet. I mean she still eats meat and all that but its mostly just vegatables and organic food. Well, about a month or two ago....she had a follow-up appointment at the Huntsman Cancer Center in Salt Lake City. I dont think I have ever been more happier then the day my dad said "the cancer is gone." I have no idea how it happened but something is working. Yes, her cancer is pretty much gone for the most part. I mean it could always return but for right now....the doctor's cant see anything.





Oh my gosh! That definitely opened my eyes and I really do believe in miracles. And I now truely believe that the lord does work in mysterious ways. I would like to thank him for saving my mother (step-mom). She means the world to my dad and I and nothing would ever be the same if we lost her. So thank you VERY much from the bottom of my heart!!! :):):)

I feel pretty goooodddd!!

I have no clue why, but right now, I am in a very good mood!! Haha. Which is weird, I just feel so good right now. Like nothing can bring me down. Hmmm.....could it be because I am changing my attitude??? Maybe. I know I may not be perfect but I am me....what more could anyone ask for??? I mean, I just can't be someone I'm not. That's just not right. Now, you might be saying to yourself "well, she says she's changing her attitude so thats being someone your not." Well I'm here to tell you that, that's not true. I am CHOOSING to change my attitude, not being forced by someone else. There is a difference.

I am changing my attitude because I will admit that I get mad at the tiniest things! And I am really sick and tired of it to be honest. The only thing it does is make the situation worse and hurt the people I care about most. So from now on, I am not going to get mad at the littlest things. Instead, I am just going to be happy for them and say "have fun!" Because thats what you should do. That's what everyone should do!! But we know that's never going to happen. Only about half of this world is positive and never negative and boy do I envy those people! Which is why I should appreciate things more, instead of being negative and mad all the time!


I just wanna thank a certain someone for finally making me see what I was doing and I am sorry it took me THIS frikin long to figure it out!! As long as you bare with me and help me through it, then I know I will make it :]


THANK YOU!!!
:D

Parenting

C'mon guys seriously! If you're gonna choose to be a parent....then be one!! Don't just yell at your kids for every little thing they do wrong. Talk to them calm and gently. I mean how hard is it to just talk to them??? Instead of frikin yelling at them!!

I say this because yesterday while I was at work this one lady's daughter goes off by herself, I mean the girl is still in plain sight of her mom and her mom goes to where's she's at and yells at her! Oh my heck! This lady was frikin on one I swear. First off: why yell at your child in the middle of a restaraunt? and Two: why take it out on your husband who is just calmly trying to pay for all your food?.....C'mon people. Have a little more respect when your out in public.

That's all I gotta say.

College

For those of you who are still in High school and not graduated yet. Don't take it for granted. High school may be filled with homework and drama but its not half bad. And you'll definitely figure that out once you start college. Just like I did. Before college even started I was SO scared!! I still am. I think I'm stressing out more than ever now because I'm worrying about how I'm gonna do, if I'm gonna pass and what not. After just being there a few days, I've already had a few headaches....and the hardest work hasn't even come yet!!


I just hope I can survive and get through the next few months. Every once in a while I'll start thinking and wonder if this is really for me. I mean I struggle in some areas and so that's what makes me worry as to whether or not I'm gonna pass. Ugh. I am going to cross my fingers though and pray that I make it through cuz that's really my only option right now.

All I can do is wait and see what happens...