Change of heart

Some of you (or most) that know me, when you read this you'll probably think "wow, I wonder what made this happen!" haha and you will also think its a wonderful thing. I honestly wish I knew what made me have this change of heart but something inside me snapped, so I decided to make a couple changes in my life.

Some of my values have been pretty out of wack, so this is what I've decided:

1-I will not marry until after I have a good paying, steady job going for me and I've dated the person for at least a year or more.
2-I am not gonna be so easily taken advantage of anymore.
3-The only voice I will listen to is my own, although its not a bad thing to get other opinions, but in the end I will decide whats right or wrong for myself.
4-I'm not gonna be so nice anymore. Yes, I will still be nice but on certain things I wont cuz I've been hurt too many times in the past because of it.
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5-I will not have a child until I am completely ready. That means both financially stable and headed in the right direction.


Those are things I've promised myself and I will NOT break them no matter what! I've been walked on one too many times, so I feel its time for some change in my life. I definitely feel I'll be more happier this way.
One thing that did make me have this change of heart is boys....ah yes! Gotta love boys. Haha. But some of the boys that have been in my life havent been the greatest people. I get boys I dont even know asking for a "sexy" picture and when I tell them no they will sit there and beg and beg til I finally cave in and even if I dont cave in they'll stop talking to me....is bullcrap! Well no more.
Number two, a couple of my ex's tried to get back with me, they begged, poured their hearts out, even tried asking me out again....but again....I said no. And yes, they got mad but I dont care! I dont like them anymore and they just need to realize that. So from this day forward....I am gonna be careful of the guys I date or even be friends with. I'm done attracting the idiots! Haha.
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From this day forward....I'm gonna be me. Take it or leave it.
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Oh-Mee-Gee :)

I am soooo....exciteddd!!!!


After a frikin year and a half worth of trying....its finally happening!! I get to move back to the one place where I actually felt I belonged. Up here....I have like no friends.....yeah I have a fiance and I love him to death but down in Beaver Dam....everyone knew everyone and I had a lot more friends that actually talked and hung out with me then I ever did up here!


So I actually mean it when I say that I CANNOT WAIT to move back!!!! :D:D My dad already told me to start going through my things, figuring out what I wanna take and what needs to be thrown away because the house should be closed within the next two weeks. Woo!!

:):):):):):):):):):)<-----as you can see...I am very happy!! lol.

WoOt WoOt!!!

I get to finally see my BEST friend more than I got to when I lived up here. It was ridiculous. I went insane! Haha. But now I don't have to anymore :) Yaaaaaayyyyyy!!!!


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People these days...

What the hell is wrong with people these days????!!!! Who has a right in this world to destroy someone else's valuable property?! I think NO ONE!!! I am so frikin frustrated right now....


I would NEVER in my life do what my ex did to me!! I gave all his shit back and what did he do to my stuff??? Threw it all away like it was nothing at all. And in that pile of stuff was my LAST picture with my papa before he died!!! I wanted to frikin go over to his house and kill him! What gave him the right to do that???? Uggggghhhhh!!!



People these days....

Seriously People!

I really think people need to learn to think before they speak. I will admit that I am a very sensitive person and saying the littlest thing to me will hurt. I can't help it. That's who I am....I'm sorry if you don't like it.


But c'mon people.....seriously!! Calling people names and yelling at them when you have no reason to is just unacceptable and rude! But hey.....your not doing anything wrong right??? WRONG!!!! You're hurting the person you use to care about most......stupid asshole! Ugh. I swear to god....one of these days I'm gonna blow up in his god damn face and he's gonna regret he ever opened his fucking mouth to me!!!! And I make that a promise!


He may not realize it but what he says hurts me.....but he doesnt care right??? He's not doing anything wrong. Its my fault. Its always my fault. No matter what I do....he always finds a way to shove it right back in my face. He turns EVERYTHING around and says its my fault. Thats why I always say sorry to people now because he made it to where I always think everything is my fault. Thanks!!! Eeeerrrr!!! I wish you would just LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!! I never wanna talk to you again if you're gonna keep acting like a little 5 year old!!!!


Thats all I gotta say.
Bye.

You are simply....AMAZING!!!!

Oh my goodness!! I dont know what to say.....I guess I could start by saying that you are just SO amazing!!! You treat me SO well and I just love it!!! You don't push me to do anything I dont want to do and I think that's the BEST thing in the world!!!!

It may be a little early to tell but what the heck!!.....you're the one I wanna be with. If everyone I knew....knew you....they would probably be thinking the same exact thing I am!! You.....wow!!.....just take my breath away. Every single day I fall more and more in love with you. I love hugging you cuz I never wanna let go, I get butterflies every single time I'm around you, I love holding your hand cuz....again.....I never wanna let go. And kissing you.....omg!!....I love kissing you cuz my heart just drops every time we do!! And I miss you SO much every time we're apart!!!...


I can promise you....right here, right now.....that I NEVER am gonna leave you!!! I wanna stay with you forever!!! You mean a lot to me and I don't wanna lose you. Call me crazy but......I LOVE YOU BABEH!!!! And I never hope to be without you :):):):)

Starstruckk!!

I dont know what it is about you but you just seem to make me smile no matter what mood I'm in.

You text me saying "good morning" every single day and thats something I look forward to the most.

I miss you when your gone.

You are so sweet :)

You take me for me and that is something I LOVE!

I can honestly say that I'm starting to fall pretty fast for you.

You've captured my heart and I dont know how.

I wish I could call you my own.

Age doesn't matter :)

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One day I hope to hear that question that will just make my heart drop!

"Will you be my girlfriend??"

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You are just simply amazing to me!

I guess you can say that I'm starstruckk for you!!

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Hospital Haters

I am a big time hospital hater....you wanna know why??? There are two reasons:

One-because I had to deal with hospitals most my life
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Two-because my mom is now stuck there because nobody knows what they hell they're doing anymore!!


Ugh. Seriously! I am gonna dis on Mesa View for a minute because....honestly....why be a hospital if you cant fix people??? Seriously!! They had to move my mom from there to the hospital up here in St. George because supposedly they didnt have the equipment to do what she needed to have done. How pathetic is that?!?! Omg!


So anyways....I seriously wish I could be in my mom's place right now. The poor woman has been through hell and back this past week and a half. I feel so bad for her. I wish I could just snap my fingers and it would all go away in an instant....but we all know thats not how life works...


I'm just hoping they find the problem soon and FIX IT!! Because if they have to move her to another hospital...AGAIN! I'm gonna scream. She doesn't deserve to be put through all this. I HATE seeing my mom like this....breaks my heart. Which is why I just wish I could take her place. Even though I'm pretty sure that once I was in her shoes...I'd want out but still... You know what I mean. Haha.



Point is......I HATE HOSPITALS!!!


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